"Will I ever love my second child as much as my first?"

"How can this new baby even compete with the strength of the bond with my toddler?"

"Am I a bad person for feeling this way?"

"What if I don't get any one on one time with my first born?"

These are all questions running through my head... Of course I know I will fall instantly In love with the bundle of life inside of me, the moment he looks into my eyes, that first cry and gasp of air. I just don't know if I'm ready to fall in love like that all over again? I know my heart will break if Charlie feels replaced, pushed aside or second best. His been my one and only for almost two years now. His whole life it's just been my attention solely focused on him. 

With saying all of this, seeing Charlie's eyes light up with delight when we are in the nursery, whilst his kissing my belly and asking for the baby, makes my heart melt. It gives me hope. Maybe it will be okay? Maybe he will also fall in love and slip into his role of big brother. Shane and I will both be learning all over again, but so will Charlie. He will be learning how to share, no not his toys, his mum and dad. 

Wish me luck,

Mummy Blogger.